I'm a 25 year old girl, working in television in Los Angeles and trying my hardest not to get pulled under. This is my log of my journey towards success in health and happiness.

CW: 165
GW1: 160
GW2: 155
GW3: 150
GW4: 145
GW5: 140

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    Day 23: Lunch Report

    I hoped lunch would make me feel better, but it didn’t. It was still delicious though. I forgot I used up all my turkey yesterday, so I had two slices of cheese and avocado instead. And a huge ass bottle of water, which means I’ll be peeing all damn afternoon, haha. Oh well. Yay hydration.

    Calorie breakdown…

    1 ezekial wrap - 150 cals.
    1 tbs. hummus - 30 cals.
    2 slices lite muenster cheese - 160 cals.
    2 persian cucumbers - 36 cals.
    1/2 small avocado - 98 cals.

    TOTAL CALORIES = 474

    I need to stock up on lunch foods for work again. I’m running low on my supplies. Thinking about making a giant meal and rationing it out for the rest of the week. Any good leftover meal suggestions?

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    Day 23

    Remember when I asked if everyone would help keep me motivated through this week? I have a feeling I’m really going to need it tonight. I’ve been sleeping pretty terribly, and I think my stamina will be lacking tonight if I take a go at it myself, so I’m thinking (if I get out of here on time) I’m going to take that hip hop class I took the other week. It was great cardio and the teacher pushed us pretty far.

    Also, HUGE hugs and kisses to the influx of followers. You people are ridiculously awesome. Please feel free to message me with any questions, comments, etc. We’re all in this together, right?

    *motivational claps* Let’s do this! Have a fab day :) xoxo.

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    Day 22

    Work has been insanity today! I have to cover the craziest office at work since one assistant is out sick. Anyway, I’ve finally managed to sit down. Yay.

    Lunch was great. I cut down to one slice of cheese and added avocado to my wrap. And let me tell you - best switch everrrr. Calorie breakdown…

    1 ezekial wrap - 150 cals.
    1 slice lite muenster cheese - 80 cals.
    2 oz. roasted sliced turkey - 50 cals.
    1 tbs. hummus - 30 cals.
    2 persian cucumbers - 36 cals.
    1/2 small avocado - 104 cals.

    TOTAL CALORIES = 450

    Such deliciousness. I’m also really proud of myself for not having any girl scout cookies. They’ve appeared in mass amounts around the office, and I have politely turned down everyone who’s asked if I wanted any.

    Random comment —last night I posted two girl/girl pictures before calling it a night and lost nearly 10 followers… I’m not upset. Obviously I don’t want people to follow me who aren’t okay with those kind of pictures. But, they were barely less appropriate than all the other sort of fitness pictures I’ve posted, and I was a bit shocked that it caused that many people to run. Clearly tumblr is a less tolerant place than I thought it was. Oh well. Random rant ending. Today is my off day from the gym, but I’m eating well and feeling optimistic about my weigh in on Wednesday. How is everyone else today?

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    Day 21

    I’ve been a smidge MIA this weekend, which I think is a good thing. Sometimes I wonder how people who are constantly posting on tumblr are possibly putting in the time in the gym they say they are. Either that, or they’re posting from the gym. Anyway, I kicked my own ass this weekend as I kind of mentioned last night.

    My food intake hasn’t been that bad - all clean and lots of fruits and veggies. I’ve been maintaining my calorie count on myfitnesspal (I’m asuccessfullife over there too if you want to be my friend), so I’m sorry I haven’t been updating it here as well. I love tracking it, but it does oddly annoy me that it doesn’t count any sort of strength exercise as calorie burning. But oh well.

    Today was good. I woke up late and went straight to the gym. I contemplated not going because I was still sore from my work out on Friday night and my jog/painting/dancing cardio of yesterday, but I did it anyway. So, this morning I did an abridged version of what I usually do because my muscles were seriously screaming at me and not in a good way.Anyway, I worked until I could work no more, haha. Also, I do exercises but I don’t know what the technical names of them are, so this is what I would call everything if I broke down my workout.

    5 min. elliptical warm up
    5 min. stretch
    3 reps. of 15 squats with a 10 lb. kettlebell
    2 reps. of 15 crunches on exercise ball
    3 reps of 30 pelvic tilts with feet resting on exercise ball
    10 min. running on treadmill

    I discovered that I really hate the treadmill/elliptical and am looking for other more creative and fun ways to do cardio. I’m taking suggestions. Hope everyone else’s weekend was as great as mine! xoxo.

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    Day 18

    Hi my gorgeous followers. I need your help.

    Unfortunately, I know the next week and a half is going to be especially difficult for me to motivate myself to do anything, much less go to the gym. Next Saturday is the anniversary of something really tough, and I hate what it does to me and that four years later it still controls me so much. It’s not something that ever goes away. It’s something I deal with every day, and it affects how I interact with others and how I handle myself regularly.

    Maybe it’s too much to ask, but I was wondering if you guys could help me stay focused on my eating and gym habits. If I left it up to me, I’d eat comfort foods every night and down them with a bottle of wine as I sit in bed and watch television, but I refuse to give up any of the progress I’ve made for the past few weeks. Two pounds may not seem like a lot, but it’s still two pounds. And if I want to see a third drop by next week, I really need help focusing.

    If anyone can provide me with encouragement and focus and motivation (especially when I’m leaving work at night), I would be so grateful. I need someone who’s going to hold me accountable and not let me slide back. And while I know it’s not good to rely on anyone but yourself for motivation, in this case, I desperately need it. Just for the next week.

    Thank you, thank you, thank you. Love and hugs all around.

    xoxo, LC.

  6.   I love this photo for so many reasons.

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    I love this photo for so many reasons.

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    Day 16

    Today is one of those days where I’m not sure how I feel. Obviously, going back to work after a holiday weekend is hard, but I’m well rested and had a great weekend, so I can’t really complain.

    I’m incredibly proud of my newly stocked fridge. And so was my roommate. He opened the door after I’d been bragging about all the healthy food I’d bought and just looks at me in disbelief and goes, “You really weren’t kidding. This is awesome.” And it is. I’m pretty excited about it.

    Today is the first time I’m using stevia instead of splenda in my coffee, and it’s a little less cloyingly sweet (which is kind of what I like about splenda, haha), but it’s not bad. And I brought in bananas and grapefruit for healthy snack options. So, I should be feeling super awesome about this, right? But for some reason I’m just not.

    I went jean shopping yesterday (because my only pair is still too tight to squeeze into), and I fit into the same size of a different brand, which should have made me super happy, but I looked into the mirror and was disgusted by what I saw. I know this is a problem. I’m trying to deal with it, but at my heaviest (just under 4 years ago) I weighed 200 lbs, and I can’t stop seeing THAT girl in the mirror, even though I’m 45 lbs. lighter now. I know a lot of it has to do with my family’s weight problems (and that EDs run in my genes), but I think it also has a lot to do with other things that I’m trying to deal with on a daily basis - namely, relationships and men. I know that I can’t expect anyone else to think I’m beautiful if I don’t myself, but it’s more than discouraging to go out and be the only one not hit on.

    Okay, self-depricating rant over. I’m just feeling a bit frustrated at the moment. Going to channel all my frustrations into weight training at the gym later. I think this week is the week where I master free weights. Something to keep my mind on. Oh well. Don’t let my fluctuating mood bring you down. Happy Tuesday, everyone.

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    New Work Out Playlist

    UNKLE - With You In My Head
    LMFAO - La La La
    The Veronicas - Take Me On The Floor
    Twista - Hit The Floor
    Bush - Machine Head
    Craig David - Stop Messing Around
    Lil Kim - The Jump Off
    Goldfrapp - Ooh La La
    Radiohead - 15 Step
    Fabolous - Can’t Deny It
    LL Cool J - Control Myself
    Nine Inch Nails - Closer
    Ram Jam - Black Betty
    Enrique ft. Lil Wayne - Push

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    Day 14: Lunch Report

    Someone remind me that when I go grocery shopping that I need to buy sugar free (or low sugar) jam. Because all I had in my fridge/pantry was enough to put together a peanut butter and jelly sandwich, and I was shocked at how many calories/sugar the jam I had added. I considered only doing peanut butter, but I’m one of those people that needs the jam.

    Calorie breakdown…

    2 slices whole wheat bread - 160 cals.
    2 tbs. organic natural peanut butter - 200 cals.
    2 tsp. strawberry preserves - 100 cals.

    TOTAL CALORIES = 460

    And now I think I’m going to rearrange my bedroom … heavy lifting is strength building, right? Haha.

  10.   Ultimate fitspiration.

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    Ultimate fitspiration.

  11.   I think I work out harder when I wear bright colors to the gym. Weird?

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    I think I work out harder when I wear bright colors to the gym. Weird?

  12.   And because I promised…….. This is pretty much the scariest thing I’ve ever done, so please be nice. But, this is me. Currently. Aka, the before shot.

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    And because I promised……..

    This is pretty much the scariest thing I’ve ever done, so please be nice. But, this is me. Currently. Aka, the before shot.

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    Day 13: Snack Report

    Calorie breakdown…

    1 TJ’s veggie burger - 230 cals.
    2 wedges lite garlic & herb laughing cow cheese - 70 cals.

    TOTAL CALORIES = 300

    So yummy. Except it made me hungrier as opposed to less hungry. Oh well. Next load of laundry to be done. Productivity awaits!

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    Day 13: Brunch and Gym Report

    Feeling uber pumped up today. I slept in super late and went straight to the gym. I did a warm up on the elliptical and then weighted squats, the ab/adductor machines and chest presses. I still haven’t worked up my confidence to approach the free weights - I think I may do one training session and ask specifically to focus on that, so I can feel more assured. Then, I finished off my session with abs (planking/crunches) and stretching. My right leg feels a little strained. I think I tried to do heavier weights than I’m actually capable of, but I was all about pushing myself today. Woot.

    Now I just got home and had a greek yogurt and two turkey meatballs. Did I mention I really need to go grocery shopping?

    Calorie breakdown…

    2% Fage Greek Yogurt - 130 cals.
    2 turkey meatballs - 100 cals.

    TOTAL CALORIES = 230

    I’m in the process of doing laundry now and will come up with my meals for the following week, so I can go grocery shopping. Yay. Spreading the love today. Happy Holiday Weekend!

  15.   Seriously, though…

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    Seriously, though…